Everyday I have to literally plan out every hour and what I’m going to get done in that time. And anytime I deter from that set up, I have to make up for it three-fold. It’s a constant battle. Doing my tasks seems like punishment - because even if I finish there is no time for accomplishment and rest. There’s yet another task waiting at hand to be done. And anytime I flip it over it just comes right back to strangle me into obedience.
Seriously, I can’t breath. I can’t fight. I can’t rest.
My sleep has been filled with so many dreams recently. i don’t even know.
I’m not a strong person. I don’t have this much fight in me.
Why won’t anyone give me a break? Why can’t someone cut me some slack? Expect just a little bit less from me?
Every moment is painful.
Every moment is bleak.
I’m so exhausted.